He knows me

It's been a while :)

Been meaning to blog, just haven't really figured out how to pen down my thoughts.

It was some time ago when I moaned about where to work and all, and about what to do.

It wasn't easy figuring what to do, as I didn't even know what I wanted!

Then after a while, I realized what I wanted, but then people around me just kept telling me that I'm being too.. "idealistic", that my first job as a fresh graduate isn't gonna be fun, that I'm "expecting too much", that I can't have everything.

But then.. what if I can?

What if I CAN have everything that I wanted?

What if I dared to ask God?

I dared to have faith, I dared to believe that God allows me to present my requests and desires to Him, and that whether or not He gives it to me, the point is that it's ok to ask.

So ask I did.

I asked for a job that:

a) Has high pay (more than RM 2k)
b) Flexible time
c) Work with people
d) Something I'd enjoy doing
e) Close proximity (within Selangor)

And guess what?

God fulfilled ALL that I asked for!

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

He gave me a job which is close to home, pays MORE than RM 2.3k (God is SO COOL!), where I work with people instead of facing the computer the whole day, flexible time (meaning the hours might be a lot, but it's negotiable to be swapped if I can't make it that day), and has something to do with my favorite subject back in high school!

Back when I was in F4 till F6, I took Literature in English as a subject for SPM and STPM. I took this subject only because I enjoyed it, and even thought to myself that "Surely I can't find a job with this subject".

Yet God in His grace and mercy gave me a job that involved something I like! Something I really really enjoy! And it's SO COOL, because I never thought that God could use something like this to teach me that He knows me.

He knows me, and He knows my likes and dislikes, my desires and my dreams.

And He is true to His word, that He has plans to prosper me, and NOT to harm me. That He won't give me what I don't like, but He knows what I like.

He is my Father, after all. My Creator. *smiles*

That being said, I'm not claiming that God WON'T hold back something good (good from my perspective) from me or allow bad things to happen to me if it means His will needs to be accomplished. His ways are not my ways, and He sees life with 2 sides of the lense, while I only see one.. So yeah.

What I AM saying is that God knows me, and that He gives me (and you!) the freedom of choice to either bring my dreams before Him.. and THEN surrender it to Him.

That this is a relationship. And that He loves me and knows me and desires that I do the same to Him as well.

This is so exciting!

As I question again how I view God, and seek to break down all assumptions I have about God and truly ask Him to give me a fresh and TRUE picture of who He really is, God is faithful.

He wants to be known, as we are known to Him.

He loves you, as He loves me. Believe it, and my prayer is that you will know Him for yourself.

Maranatha, people! God bless :)

PS: Thank you to all who prayed with me during the whole job process. Thank you to all who walked through this journey with me. I am glad I didn't make it on my own (you know how proud I get). I'm glad God gave all of you to me. Thank you! You guys are so precious to me. *hugs*